I always tell people I am one of the luckiest people alive having been blessed with a wonderful family, friends and being able to do what I love. However, there have been some rough times too with loss of loved ones, illness and financial setbacks. Crafting has helped see me through all of these.
After losing my grandmother, dad and dog I went into a very deep depression. Sure I went through all the motions, took care of business and acted as though things were OK but they weren’t. Each of us must handle loss of loved ones in their own way and time but I found myself sinking deeper, I quit making things, hid out, and basically climbed into a shell of sorrow. I knew I had to do something, something new, something to get my mind into another place. Since I had been painting and working with fabric for years I sought something totally different, something I had to really focus on. I found cold metal forging.
Cold metal forging is basically using a hammer and anvil to beat metal into submission. Maybe it was the physical energy release or the fact that I had to focus on the work to keep from injuring myself but I found myself feeling better and enthused to try more and more metal working techniques. I became wrapped up in the process and then started adding in some of my “old” mediums like fabrics and fibers. I felt better, started sleeping and eating better which gave me the strength to do more and a far better mental attitude.
Life can be a rollercoaster ride, things are bright then slide down again which is what happened to me. Depression wasn’t the thing this time as much as stress and anxiety. My husband had a couple of very serious health issues including open heart surgery we also lost about 70% of our income over the next couple years. Trying to care for him and pay the bills was taking its toll. Again, I let my time, my creative time for me go. Not a good idea! Here again I was not sleeping, was not eating well, and allowed circular thoughts and worries consume me. I gained 40 plus pounds blew out one knee and most days felt rotten and miserable, really cranky.
During this time period of my husband’s delicate health, a loved one also got lymphoma. I devoted myself to health issues, what to do to help both of them. I did loads of research on the causes of cancer and heart disease. I became versed on everything from nutrition, metal attitude to environmental causes. What I found shocked me to the core. Many of the products deemed safe and non-toxic, including many of my art supplies, were potential contributors to disease! So now I am in a real pickle knowing I need to get back to crafting for my own mental and physical health but concerned over the products I use. This is when I found Earth Safe Finishes, the only no VOC and truly non-toxic paint and finish products made in the USA. I fell back in love with painting.
I am normally a private person and am surprised I opened up this much here. (I even cried in the shower when my husband was ill so he would not know how I felt.) It is important to me to let others know that they are not alone and that there is an answer; love and crafting!
My name is Barbara Matthiessen and you can view my artwork at:
www.earthsafefinishes.com
http://artofgreenrecycling.blogspot.com/
http://totally-creative.com/
http://craftgate.com/blog/BarbaraMatthiessen
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